HOPE: IS IT WORTH IT?

There was a time this word wasn't particularly existent in my life.

Hope was nothing less than frivolous. As a matter of fact, I hated the word.

I had grown up to the extent of relying on the best of my own abilities. I never imagined anything as being lucky. It was either I was just too good or not good at all.

I would tag myself as rigid then because I would do everything in my power just to get what I wanted.

When I didn't get it, I admitted that I didn't do enough. The failure would stick with me for a while and sometimes it would affect all other aspects of my life.

The mentality stuck with me for a few months, and soon I started to break down because of how hard I pushed myself in perilous times.

My statement was, “I will make it happen." It wouldn't matter how long but I surely will.

As time went on, it was getting hard to maintain such a face. I would beat myself down for every time I failed to succeed.

I would curse at myself and tell myself that I would have done better if only I had not taken that five hours rest.

I started falling slowly into depression. I started detaching myself from relationships, refusing to let anyone get the best of me.
The mentality that I had to prove everyone wrong got to me.

Hope became the most dreaded thing. I went from an optimist to pessimist.

What good was having hope anyway when everything was going to end up failing.

Sometimes I got what I wanted but I never truly got peace and happiness.

I knew I needed to change. I was broken. I lost every innocence.

It was the realisation that created that spark of hope in me.

Hope, not in my abilities but Hope, in someone's ability to fix me.

Someone's ability to recreate me.

HOPE IN GOD'S TRUE WILL FOR ME.

I'd argue Hope is definitely worth it.
That string you have connected to God who never fails.

The assurance you have that He is planning everything according to the good plans he has for you.

That indeed is true Hope.
Hope that has life.
Hope that is unshakable.
Hope that is truly worth it.

I accepted His hope into my life.

Now look at me, I have the widest smile on my face as I tell you about my testimony of hope.

HOPE DOESN'T LET ANYONE OR ANYTHING STOP YOU.

HOPE DOESN'T LET YOUR FAILURE BRING YOU DOWN.

TRUE HOPE GIVES YOU EASE

A SOOTHING EASE.

TRUE HOPE IS ETERNAL